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Rants & Raves 09/22/08 - Ok. Its been forever. I'll admit it. Haven't done a damn thing with anything on here. Do I have much to say lately???? I suppose so. I got a new member of the family. Samantha. I'll post pictures as soon as I can. I also have the new fall TV 2008 season posted for those interested. 8/19/07 - The mind is such a fascinating device it lets you remember all those details about life. The first moments of seeing someone that you have a connection with. the first date, that chase, the anticipation that its gonna be returned then the delight that they chase back. those back and forth moments of the smiles and stolen looks. the first kisses, the first tastes, all the intimate details when you fooled around for the first time. the caresses, the heat, the passion, the flavor of another persons body, the electric energy at saying goodbye and knowing they should never leave but they have to. those moments of touch. exploration rubbing your hands over someone, that curiosity of being intimate, running your fingers over someone finding all the new and interesting aspects of their body. the feeling of bring pleasure to another person, that moment of first arousal touching, tasting, feeling someone, the warmth, the connection, the fascination that action can provoke reaction and stimulation and feeling.... and having that turn against you when its no longer there. When someone else is provoking that response for the person that you've poured so much of yourself into. See their bodies naked and rolling round thrusting and releasing. the afterglow that isn't yours. the hours that they share together afterwords. the moment they leave with the though that it'll happen again . was it right, was it better, was it so much more cause it wasn't you. can't breathe cant eat cant sleep the thought of never again is so huge 8/18/07 - Fallacy of Love I suppose when you do fall in love you hope it kinda fills you up and overflows out of you so that every person you meet or see or know feels what you feels but I just thats not always the case. I guess you can't love enough to make the world a better place. You can't have enough of it inside of you that it fill not only you but the person you love too. Just being a giving, warm, caring person that would do anything for the person you love just isn't enough. Its rough when you the person you love turns out to be... I don't even know what... outside of the fact I fell head over heels and it just wasn't returned. They never saw it. I guess that makes me the chump for falling. I guess I'm just the fool. I guess I'm in the wrong. I'm the bad person for allowing myself hope that there was someone who could give back everything that I could give. Chump. I don't think I can wait another 10 years. I don't have it in me. I just don't. 12/28/06 - So how can you put into words, a holiday, when spent sitting alone on your couch, amounts to nothing other than anticipation of going to sleep. 12/19/06 - Holiday tease. Company Holiday Parties.... So they are dreaded. Always seems to be the case. Here are people that you see 260 days out of the year so that 261'st day really isn't going to make the people that you think are dicks any less dickian or the people that are annoying any less annoyian... or for that matter the people that you like that much more likeable. Right? Wrong. Jack and Coke tends to bring out the best in people. At least that will be my interpretation of it from now on. Of course 2 days later, when the influence has worn off, those moments that had so much potential just tuen into awkward uncomfortable "sorry I gave you the wrong impressions" and "I think I might have been too drunk to remember what I was saying" topics. Hopes dashed. Pity spirals begin. And all around surly moods are created. I'm not one to take opportunites lightly cause frankly I don't get a lot and wow did this one hit hard. Whisky till you pass out and spend the night in front of a porcelain temple. Sad. My life is sad. 12/14/06 - So I had this very weird dream. My sister and I were fighting. Doing stupid stuff that brothers and sisters that soon escalates to someone getting hurt. Anyways I did something to her in the kitchen... purposely finished off all the milk or something along those lines. She reacted back by doing something larger until the two of us were in this huge full on war. I recall locking her in the basement of this house and some how leaping off a mountain and flying to the base, through trees and other obsticals, over a fence and landed in the car park only to find out that she had suborned my two coordinators Jak and Brian into messing with my car. Upon landing I grabbed each of them by their throats and began to strangle them to death. It was glorious. then I woke up. Weird part is my sister passed away very near to this date. Kinda creepy not to have thought of her for a while but on near the same day she died I get a wacked out dream..... 11/18/06 - TiVo Rip. So Wednesday night I got home at around 2:30 am went to bed and no sooner did I hit the pillow than there was a power outage for about 5 minutes. Didn't think anything of it, got up the next morning went to work, got out at 3:43am, and turned on the TV to tape some shows and low and behold my TiVo is rip. I'm devistated. 4 weeks of BSG and this entire weeks worth of TV GONE. I do not even have a clue what to do. 11/13/06 - Regret. I hate the word cause it so fits life. Vacancy Wrap Party... which is funny cause there are still 4 days of shooting and then 5 months of post. Wrap parties blow. Outside of the plus1 curse, be it awkwardness or unconnectability they are like really bad high school dances. You spend months with people, bonding and what have you and again you hype up expectations and plans only to realize everyone is sharing this experience with the people they have been removed from. It's great for them they reconnect but then that just brings to light to all the disconnecttedness in your life. Add that to the fact that you think to yourself, in a social setting I'm going to finally get up the nerve to actually say what you feel to the people that you want to. Hell its outside the wokr place right. And then you realize its not your life. Nothing is going to go your way. And then you go home and curl up on the couch and do what you do best and hang with you imaginary fiend sthat one a week are there for cause no one else that you want to be there ever is so yeah. Sitting here watching Brothers and Sisters and realizing that Justin who I want to be, a fucked up mess of a train wreck, who just wants the world to go away is right on the money. 10/27/06 - So I went to the Jamie Cullum concert at the Wiltern last night. So glad that I did. Its amazing to see him live. The execution of some of those tracks was such a delight to see. Its also amazing to see that he's from the same shire as the hobbits were from. He's got to be at least 4'. For being the last leg of the tour though you'd figure that they'd have the execution of the whole things down at this point but I have to say there were some oddly jumbled and disconnectedpoints to the whole thing. Overall though... good concert. Makes me want to go to more. 8/18/06 - Just got back from a 2 week stint in our Vancouver office of Zoic. Helped out on a pilot called Drive. Should be coming out in January. Stayed at the four seasons which was in walking distance from the office. I love walking to work. 10 minutes. Perfect timing. Its a shame LA is so vast. 7/24/06 - Just got back from the 2006 Comic-con. Bought a page from the Escapist drawn by Jason Alexander. I suppose my motives were suspect as he was playing up the cute starving artist angle. But I'm happy with the decision. Matt had a great time. He'd never been before and was a total convert. Dinner with Anthony's sister on Friday night. GIC panel and mixer on Saturday night. Was expecting to sit in on the Kevin Smith panel but he was a no show. BIG BUMMER! 7/13/06 - Glenn Gainor producer of Deuce Bigalow 2 has a new flick in the works called Vacancy. Sarah Jessica Parker and Luke Wilson in a snuff film. Directed by Nimród Antal. Talk about your awsome first names. 7/08/06 - First day of shooting for Standoff (previously known as Primary) An air traffic controller hijacks LAX. Good script. GS flying planes and shit. 6/17/06 - Johnny Pipe got married. 6/30/06 - Flying dad out for a 3 weeks of fun. We got a lot of things accomplished. Tore down the 2 gates around the house. Trimmed up the cactii on the roof and replaced the windows in the Garage.(didn't think we'd ever attempt that). He was a man possessed. 5/31/06 - The guys from Blair Witch Chronicles are doing a sci-fi slashr flick called Oblivion. Great concept hope I get to work on it. 5/26/06 - A friend of mine just started back at DD. He pitched my name to head up their episodic division. Ugggghhhhh TV. 5/23/06 - Had lunch with a old friend Alice Kaizerian. Good times. 4/19/06 - Doug Liman is doing an adaptation of one of my favorite books, Jumper. Neddless to say as soon as I found out I hit the pavement trying to find out everything I could about the production. We got an invite to do a test and we presented we'll see how it plays out. 3/28/06 - Flying Mom out. Of course, the shit is hitting the fan with the Primary shot. Reflecting back, I would have done things differently. Yeah. Oh, and watched a great episode of Gray's Anatomy in which a dying woman Laurie Metcalf came to terms with her deathand the fact that she was going to have to tell her 16 year old daughter she was going to have to live her life without her. Very heart wrenching. Perfect time to come out to my mother. Didn't go as well as planned. Mom proceeds to have a panic attack that night and then the silent treatment for 3 days. I should fly her out more often. Between the "What if anyone in the family should find out?" and the "If thats how you want to live your life" comment... good times. 3/26/06 - 20th Century Fox has a pilot in the works called Primary about hostage negotiators starring Ron Livingston. Anyways I'm VFXsupping the pilot. Simple shot we pull out from a Jaguar, through the back window of a Taurus - through the seats, over the steering wheel, through the front window, over the hood, to a Range Rover sitting in an intersection, through that then up behind a van on the other side of the intersection booming up to reveal an accident in the intersction and FBI surrounding the whole scene. Seemlessly. One take. Granted it won't be shot that way but we'll make it look that way in the end. 3/06/06 - Tropicana shoot in which we are doing things with Orange Juice you've never seen before. Except in a fruitopia commercial 10 years ago. 2/16/06 - Had a great meeting with the Director and producer of the low budget film Killer Pad. Bad thing was they didn't have any money. Good thing was that Robert Englend and watch him recreate a scene in the show in whitch a demon hooker humps the leg of a character. Priceless. 2/07/06 - In case anyone was wondering, the server that this site used to be on was hacked and almost everything has had to be recreated. So we are back. And having realized that I suck at html I'm revamping the guts and making everything frames based so I won't have to edit one million files ever freaking time something happens. 9/03/05 - Exhausted. Threshold has been beating the crap out of me this week. Tim Matheson, yes the actor, is directing Episode 6. Nice guy but the episode is very complex so I've been pulling 18 hour days. Tired. Giving up on internet dating. Its not paying off. Contacting lots of people but nothing is pinging back. yeah, thats really depressing. Getting sick of coming to an empty house and an empty bed. 7/27/05 - Went to Hollywood Forever screening of Sullivan's Travels. You know, its funny, dialog in movies from the 40's tends to be rather snappy and quick. Reminds me a lot of what Aaron Sorken did with SportsNight and West Wing. Fascinating.. The company was great. Alsmot a re-teaming of the Dome crowd. Adam, Joey, Jackson, Chris, Matt, Anthony, Brandon all goods people. 7/21/05 - Wow. No posts for almost a month. What can I say... went to the Coldplay concert down in Irvine. Great concert. But I hate the time restrictions that place down there. All concerts must be done by 11pm. They were great. Played almost every song from XY. Beers were 10 dollars. 7/19/05 - Ok. So I just finished week 2 of Threshold. The week of nights has been absolutely brutal. Don't even know what day it is. I'm warming up to the crew. Being such an introvert I must come across as an absolute dick but hopefully as they get to know me they will see that isn't the case. Spending so much time at Paramount, I don't have a clue what is going on back at the office. I should start writing. 7/18/05 - If you've been following, you'll know I've been discussing my ousting from the Zoic hegemony. It's still in effect. More so now that I've been asked to VFX Supervise Threshold, the new CBS series airing Friday, September 16th at 9pm, working not only under the owner of the company but under the head of TV VFX too. Lots of cooks in the kitchen. Back in TV land. Don't get me wrong, I love TV but the fact that other people in the facility are running the Film divison I created -- pisses me off. Wonder if its bad that I'm vocalizing that? 7/17/05 - Just got back from San Diego Comic Con. It was great. Rather a shame no one went with me. Spent Thursday, Friday and Saturday there. Spend way too much on some art... and the room... and the food. Sprained my ankle carrying Bobbi-Sue Luther all around after the Master Of Horrors Party Friday night. Saw Charisma Carpenter (Cordelia) and Jonathan Woodward who played Knox in Angel (damn. If that boy wasn't straight.....). Shook hands with the legend Stan Lee. Got back into town went to the second installment of the KRCW Hollywood Bowl series -- Bossacucanova, Roysopp and Basement Jaxx. It freaking rocked. Made a fool of myself dancing in front of these lovely boys -- Jack, Chris, Joey & Tim but I had fun so I guess thats all that matters escpecailly after that whole painfully shy thing aflicted me aupon first meeting everyone. I can only image what they thought.. Anyways, I highly recommend seeing Basement Jaxx or Royksopp. 6/20/05 - Just got back from a J-Lo shoot in Albuquerque, NM. That place is hot and I don't mean hot in a good way. We are talking 85 at 11:30pm hot. Not my cuppa. Before you as I didn;'t even get a chance to say a single word to J. There was an entourage of at least 6 orbiting people around her at all times. Antonio wasn't even there. But it was fun being on set.
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